the tin of biscuits

the thunder was roaring tonite.
it sounded many times before i saw the lightning.
usually u see it first bcoz light is supposed to travel faster than sound. but i heard them first tonite.
u can count the number of seconds between the lightning seen and thunder heard to give u a good gauge of how far the bolt is away from us.
maybe the thunders i heard were those left behind by the bolts of lightning i missed to catch.
i like these kind late rainy nights with thunders and lightnings bcoz it reminded me of the silly things me and my brothers did when we were younger.
we enjoy scaring ourselves silly and dashing to hide under blankets and thinking the monster would come after us.
i enjoy popping tidbits and sipping hot mushroom soup on stormy nights and catching my favourite old hongkong horror movies in front of the tv screen.

after almost 2 weeks of headaches and dizziness, i finally decided to see my doctor.
her first question to me was: huh? are u pregnant?
my first reflex was a burst of laughter. and she laughed too.
but she continued: how would i know? i havent seen u for about 2 years, so probably u are married with kids now.
haha.. that's true. things would have changed. but that's how long i havent been to a doctor.
she used the word 漂亮(beautiful) to describe my blood pressure and i laughed too.
i like this particular doctor of mine. i like her like all my favourite school teachers.
but i had jitters before i walked into her clinic and had almost walked out of the door while waiting for my number to beep.
she's not any scary doc bcoz she's gentle, kind and caring towards her patients. so her patients like her too.
maybe bcoz i'd worked part-time for her before for a while. she was stern and strict with me then so im still scared. but is out of respect and i still like her all the same.

i've not exactly been in a jolly mood for the past 2 days for reasons i duno if they exist.
my brain is here but im not thinking. things are preoccupying my mind but i duno wat they are.
im busy with work and at home but im bored and feeling restless. but im not bored bcoz i was busy. in fact, im happy to be busy.
im not feeling empty bcoz i dun feel im lonely. all those i treasure and whom i love are with me at this moment of my life and so i dun feel unfulfilled.
sometimes things like this get me down. maybe is just the headaches.
but they always come and go sooner than i expect. tomorrow will be a better day! yes, im quite sure.

i think i'll just forget about the calories tonite and maybe make myself a cup of instant mushroom soup to go with some biscuits that are still leftover in the tin.