the present

i ate this cookie dough i bought from baskin' boys today. it's a new outlet (i think) and i happened to be in the vicinity for an exhibition that was taking place around town. sometimes u come across those bites that really warm ur heart, that fill and wrap u up in that blissful feeling making u think that u're so fortunate to be able to enjoy that every bit of it. living and savouring this very moment , u're grateful to be given this opportunity, this chance to be here to experience it and feeling so real. it was how i felt then when i was biting into this cookie dough this afternoon.

i held it in my hand and ate it as i walked. i simply didnt want to finish it up just so soon. the heat from the cookie was just nice and it warmed my hand. i kept half the portion so that i could still get to eat it during the self-declared tea break session back at the office an hour later. i couldnt bear the thought that if i finished it now, there would be no more of it left for me to eat. i think i sound silly bcoz i can always go back to the bakery and get more of them since i like it so much. but that's how i am. i probably thought i might not get back or experience the same feelings again if i eat this on some other days. i might have a different set of feelings altogether by then. so it has to be now, then. i took every bite of it, as slowly as i could, even though the cookie wouldnt start growing bigger no matter how slow i ate. i know it will be gone, sooner or later, it's just a matter of time. but i just wanted to hold on to that moment for as long as i could. i even thought of keeping the paperbag that was used to carry the cookie bcoz it had leftover crumbs in it.

i think things like these happen around us too. we meet different people, be in contact with many things, have new experiences, new feelings and live in those moments every now and then. sometimes things u experience, or feelings or thoughts u get only exist and last at that special moment, and if u missed holding onto it, if it pass by and u let it slipped away, u can never get it back the same anymore, no matter how hard u try. i used to think i like leaving the best to the last, but now, i think i wana change that. learning how to savour and cherish every bit of this moment, now, the present is a blessing. it's really great to be living.